September

I can't sleep!! I really don't like this month and would completly skip it altogether if I could. Not that I want to remove the memories for they are so predcious to me I would just love to remove the pain. I still rememeber everything so vividly and the closer we get to the 28th the harder the nights sttll get. You would think that 7 years later it would get easier and I keep waiting. I still remember the sono guy (Jason) telling me that there was no heart beat and the look on his face when he said he would look again or maybe he saw the look on my face. I remember not knowing how to feel and my ob asking if I was ready to hold her and I told him no and the nurses bringing her in anyways I am so gratefull that they did because those moments with her were amazing although too short. I wonder sometimes if she would have had the same personality and interests as Nikki or if she would have been just the opposite, or if they would have looked the same. Nichole speaks of Madison often and comments that she wishes her sister was alive still so that they could play dress up together and it makes my heart ache. Last year in kindergarten the kids all drew pictures of their families for a quilt and Nikki had drawn an angel in the sky to represent Maddi and it made me wonder if she still felt her presence within her. I will always remember Maddi and she will hold a special place in my heart forever.

Photos

I finally dumped my camera onto the computer so there is alot of photos that I want to post as I try to get udated so hopefully it won't be too overwhelming with photos but I sure love to brag.

Surgery Appointment

Cj has an appointment on Tuesday the 23rd. I beleive that they are going to scope him so that we may be able to hopefully find out why he isn't swallowing his foods. I thought that I knew exactly what was going on with this apt. but then GI called about doing a similiar procedure so now I am all confused. I suppose we will find out when we get there. Anyways I will post more next week.

Busy,Busy,Busy

Life has been very busy these days I suppose probably since school started in August! We had made a decision when school got out in May that we were not going to put the kids in any summer activities and just take some time off (which we later realized was not such a great idea). So needless to say when school started we got really busy with all the activities. Nikki has been in piano lessons all year and so far loves it. We were able to get her a great piano off of Craig's list which helped spark her enthusiasm in practicing. She is also on the competition dance team this year which requires 6 hours of practice every week. 3 hours on Friday nights and 3 hours on Saturday mornings, she also has girl scouts on Wednesdays.

Conrad on the other hand lives a much slower paced life, he just started his first year of karate on Tuesdays and although he did have some apprehensions going in, he has found the he really likes it. I do however remind him that he is not to use his karate on his sister (allot) I'm a little nervous but at the same time thrilled that he likes it.

James and I are also teaching our first Financial Peace University Class (Dave Ramsey) and it is going great we had allot of interest in the class and have several couples and individuals taking the class with us. We are very excited to help others as well as ourselves learn how to have financial peace in there lives.