Looks like the ER visit brought us more than just a few stitches. Last Sunday I came down with the flu. Yuck.. At least it is just fever and nothing else. To make it worse though my boss was on vacation. I work in a very small office which means I had to be at work. So with a fever of 100 to 103 I went to everyday for 8hrs each day. Still not sure how I managed that one. He did come back yesterday though so I took the rest of the week off. I am finally feeling better today. The bad news is that everyone else now has the same stuff. We did take CJ to the doc and he gave him the H1N1 vaccine just in case since he is high risk. Other than that there is not much we can do. Just wait it out. I did however stock up on Tylenol and Advil.
CJ got his stitches taken out last Tuesday he didn't think much of that. We also had to make an appointment with neurosurgery because he has had a headache for the last two weeks and this makes me a little nervous since he does have a shunt. I have never wondered about his shunt until now. I suppose we should have it checked out, his appt. is next month so I will keep you updated. I did start measuring his head once a week and so far there has been no change so maybe it's not his shunt after all. who knows.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
ER Visit
Well CJ had a visit to the ER last night. Poor kid. We were at the school for a PTO meeting and the kids were out in the hallway playing and had been for about 45 minutes when I hear this horrid screaming. I knew right away that it was CJ. He had been running in the hallway and fell. He came walking into the teachers lounge where we were having the meeting and I could see the blood down his arm where he had wiped his chin and so I think that freaked him out as well seeing the blood. I picked him up and took him to the bathroom to clean him up and try to get him to calm down so I could see the damage but knew it couldn't be good. One of the mom's there is a first responder so she came in and took a look at it also but there was no doubt he needed stitches because you could see that fatty tissue that is under the skin.
Well as you can imagine the ER was swamped and I was so paranoid about the germs because there were several people that were wearing masks. We sat in the waiting room for about 2 1/2 hrs before finally going back. The doc as well as the nurses were kinda rude to top things off. Absolutely no bedside manners. The nurse didn't explain anything about what was going to happen she just brought everything in and got ready. We (the nurse and I) of course had to hold him down to get the stitches in. It was horrible he was screaming the whole time. The doc came in and out never saying even boo to us. Didn't even introduce himself thats how bad it was. I guess we are kinda spoiled with the care we get from Childrens Mercy.
Well needless to say he ended up with 3 stitches and calmed down rather quickly when it was all over. As we were waiting for the nurse to come back in to give us our instructions CJ made the comment that he wished it would have happened to his sister instead of him. I told him that wasn't a very nice thing to say. And he said I know but it was really scary. :( I had to laugh a little but felt so sorry for him that he had to go through that. We did talk later though and I asked him if it hurt when the doc was fixing his ouchie and he said no so that made me feel a little better that the screams were fear and not pain.
Well as you can imagine the ER was swamped and I was so paranoid about the germs because there were several people that were wearing masks. We sat in the waiting room for about 2 1/2 hrs before finally going back. The doc as well as the nurses were kinda rude to top things off. Absolutely no bedside manners. The nurse didn't explain anything about what was going to happen she just brought everything in and got ready. We (the nurse and I) of course had to hold him down to get the stitches in. It was horrible he was screaming the whole time. The doc came in and out never saying even boo to us. Didn't even introduce himself thats how bad it was. I guess we are kinda spoiled with the care we get from Childrens Mercy.
Well needless to say he ended up with 3 stitches and calmed down rather quickly when it was all over. As we were waiting for the nurse to come back in to give us our instructions CJ made the comment that he wished it would have happened to his sister instead of him. I told him that wasn't a very nice thing to say. And he said I know but it was really scary. :( I had to laugh a little but felt so sorry for him that he had to go through that. We did talk later though and I asked him if it hurt when the doc was fixing his ouchie and he said no so that made me feel a little better that the screams were fear and not pain.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Nevada Trip
Ok, so where did I leave off......Oh yeah!!! Well we arrived in NV 9 hrs after leaving CA. It was great. The kids I think though thought they had entered a whole other world. My mom and dad have some land that they camp and gold mine on about an hour outside of Elko, Nv. ( I grew up in Elko). This is where we stayed for the next 10 days. Camping. Of course when we first go there the kids weren't quite sure what to do and when they asked what there was to do we said whatever you want. Well this got them excited for a moment and then they became concerned with getting lost. We all laughed and assured them that they would not get lost. We didn't do much while we were there and that was great. There was no phone, TV or anything electronic unless it ran off of batteries or gas. We did allot of 4-wheeling (every day) and the kids looked for crystals on the mountain side which are just clear quartz rocks but everywhere. They spent allot of time looking for those. As the days past they began bringing down whole rocks that had crystals in them and then spent many hours in the water hole washing them. It brought back allot of memories because my mom always had a rock garden and we were always looking for rocks to put in it. Of course our rock finding days are over but mom still has a rock garden which now has new rocks in it. The kids also played in the mud and made not just mud pies but mud cities. It was so much fun just doing nothing. We cooked every meal over the campfire and had smores every night. We can't wait to go back. Although mom and dad might not feel that way since they are used to it just being them and then here all of us come...My older sister Serena also got engaged while we were out there so that was amazing to be able to be a part of that. Not allot to post about the trip we just hung out around camp sometimes not showering for a couple of days I think there were days I didn't even brush my hair and one day I just stayed in my pajamas all day. It was definitely a trip of lots of memories. We had no worries...acunimatata.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
I'm Back
Wow!! I didn't realize it had been so long since I updated. I mean I knew it had been awhile but not that long ago. Sorry.... Well as you can imagine so much has happened between then and now so I will touch on a little of all of it and then I want to post a bunch of pictures. Well lets see. CJ is still eating like a champ. He eats better and better every day. We are only giving him one to two cans of formula a day and he is eating the rest by mouth. We of course are very excited about this. The doc no longer has us coming in for weight checks every month we graduated in Aug to every other month. He is still picky about some textures and tastes but we are working to get past those. Oh by the way that reminds me of something CJ did at breakfast the other day. He decided he wanted eggs so James cooked him some only he cooked them in sausage grease. CJ commented that the eggs tasted rotten. So James offered him some of his eggs (he eats them with the yoke runny). Of course CJ said yes so James gave him a bite and he instantly started retching and gagging his eyes were watering. James asked him if he was OK and he shook his head no and said nasty oke. It was quite funny the poor guy.
Nikki did well in Branson at her dance nationals we had allot of fun. They had a parent dance down and we talked James into wearing a frog prince costume. It was hilarious. After Branson Nationals we worked for a couple of weeks then took off again to run a fireworks stand. The kids enjoyed this allot. CJ was really reserved about everything at first in regards to lighting the fireworks. It was so cute. He only wanted smoke balls and the little stuff. Now more towards the end we were having to check his stash because he was going for rockets and allot of the other real big stuff. Nikki wasn't quite so reserved she went right for the big stuff. She also decided to get brave and light firecrackers and then throw them. This was kinda hard to watch at first but I knew they were slow burning not black cats. I almost stopped her then James talked me into just letting her learn to do it because she is going to someday. I suppose I do have to let them grow up. It's just hard sometimes.
After fireworks we went to work for a few weeks then we had CJ's 5Th birthday party. It's hard to believe that he is already 5. He had a superman/pool party for his birthday it was fun only that it rained all day and we had about 30 people at the house. O well the kids thought it was awesome to be able to swim in the rain. We decided to wait on kindergarten though due to his birthday being so close to when school started. When we talked to his kindergarten teacher during round up she said he would be ready but boys generally do better when they start later because of maturity. He is really enjoying preschool this year.
After the birthday party (5 days later) the kids and I flew to San Jose, CA. to my sisters house. The kids thought it was really cool to fly in a plane and be above the clouds. CJ was quite full of questions about the plane which turned out to be quite funny. The first plane we flew in was a very small plane about 13 rows of two seats on each side. We were at the back of the plane with only one row behind us the kids sat together and I sat across the isle. Now behind us was a very very nervous person who mind you had never been on the plane before and everyone on the plane seemed well aware of this since the stewardess had to keep going back and answering questions for her. Needles to say her questions started my 5 year old to start asking his own questions. How high are we, what is keeping the plane in the sky, are we higher than the clouds etc..... OK lots of questions. Now the best part was when we were starting to land!!! Why is the plane tipping sideways? Because we are turning so that we can line up with the runway. Why do we have to line up with the runway? So that we can land the plane. Oh so that we don't crash. That poor woman behind us. Of course the whole plane must have been listening to his curiosity because they all just started laughing because I wasn't quite sure how to answer that last question besides yes dear so that we don't crash. What a ham......
After our layover we boarded our 2ND flight finally to California and thankfully with less questions since as luck would have it the same woman was once again an isle behind us. I did realize on this flight just how much we take for granted. Nikki had a window seat and was mesmerized by everything down below. I was reading and not really paying much attention we were getting lower to the ground getting ready to land when Nikki says mom are those mountains? I just stopped reading and looked out the window and almost cried. Yes those were real mountains. Not pictures or movies but real mountains. I grew up in the mountains and didn't think anything of it but she was fascinated. I didn't even think about how significant that moment was going to be for her. She had only ever seen them in pictures. I found that I actually had to remind myself that I needed to be excited about seeing the mountains and remember to point things out that I take for granted having lived in the mountains of NV. It was an amazing experience to see those mountains again only with new eyes.
It was wonderful seeing my sister and her family it had been 5 years since we had seen each other. She has 3 girls and a boy. It was even more wonderful to see the kids play together and get to know each other. We stayed in San Jose for 5 days. We went to Santa Cruz to the beach so that the kids could see the ocean. That was awesome. Nikki loved the waves and building sand castles and just playing. CJ on the other hand wanted nothing to do with the water. It was loud and cold. He just wanted to play in the sand.
After hanging out in San Jose for a few days Cindi and I and all 6 kids loaded in the van at 5am to miss California's AM rush hour. We headed to Nevada to our mom and dads. This was about a 9 hour drive. It went pretty well although I have to admit I forgot what it was like to drive through the mountains between California and Nevada.
Seeing my mom and dad was awesome. 5 years was just too long. James flew out and met us at mom and dads camp that Saturday and my sister Serena and her family came out also. We couldn't believe that our family had gone from 6 to 20. Well its getting late tonight and I have so much more to post so I will stop here for now and will post more later. I promise to post soon.
Nikki did well in Branson at her dance nationals we had allot of fun. They had a parent dance down and we talked James into wearing a frog prince costume. It was hilarious. After Branson Nationals we worked for a couple of weeks then took off again to run a fireworks stand. The kids enjoyed this allot. CJ was really reserved about everything at first in regards to lighting the fireworks. It was so cute. He only wanted smoke balls and the little stuff. Now more towards the end we were having to check his stash because he was going for rockets and allot of the other real big stuff. Nikki wasn't quite so reserved she went right for the big stuff. She also decided to get brave and light firecrackers and then throw them. This was kinda hard to watch at first but I knew they were slow burning not black cats. I almost stopped her then James talked me into just letting her learn to do it because she is going to someday. I suppose I do have to let them grow up. It's just hard sometimes.
After fireworks we went to work for a few weeks then we had CJ's 5Th birthday party. It's hard to believe that he is already 5. He had a superman/pool party for his birthday it was fun only that it rained all day and we had about 30 people at the house. O well the kids thought it was awesome to be able to swim in the rain. We decided to wait on kindergarten though due to his birthday being so close to when school started. When we talked to his kindergarten teacher during round up she said he would be ready but boys generally do better when they start later because of maturity. He is really enjoying preschool this year.
After the birthday party (5 days later) the kids and I flew to San Jose, CA. to my sisters house. The kids thought it was really cool to fly in a plane and be above the clouds. CJ was quite full of questions about the plane which turned out to be quite funny. The first plane we flew in was a very small plane about 13 rows of two seats on each side. We were at the back of the plane with only one row behind us the kids sat together and I sat across the isle. Now behind us was a very very nervous person who mind you had never been on the plane before and everyone on the plane seemed well aware of this since the stewardess had to keep going back and answering questions for her. Needles to say her questions started my 5 year old to start asking his own questions. How high are we, what is keeping the plane in the sky, are we higher than the clouds etc..... OK lots of questions. Now the best part was when we were starting to land!!! Why is the plane tipping sideways? Because we are turning so that we can line up with the runway. Why do we have to line up with the runway? So that we can land the plane. Oh so that we don't crash. That poor woman behind us. Of course the whole plane must have been listening to his curiosity because they all just started laughing because I wasn't quite sure how to answer that last question besides yes dear so that we don't crash. What a ham......
After our layover we boarded our 2ND flight finally to California and thankfully with less questions since as luck would have it the same woman was once again an isle behind us. I did realize on this flight just how much we take for granted. Nikki had a window seat and was mesmerized by everything down below. I was reading and not really paying much attention we were getting lower to the ground getting ready to land when Nikki says mom are those mountains? I just stopped reading and looked out the window and almost cried. Yes those were real mountains. Not pictures or movies but real mountains. I grew up in the mountains and didn't think anything of it but she was fascinated. I didn't even think about how significant that moment was going to be for her. She had only ever seen them in pictures. I found that I actually had to remind myself that I needed to be excited about seeing the mountains and remember to point things out that I take for granted having lived in the mountains of NV. It was an amazing experience to see those mountains again only with new eyes.
It was wonderful seeing my sister and her family it had been 5 years since we had seen each other. She has 3 girls and a boy. It was even more wonderful to see the kids play together and get to know each other. We stayed in San Jose for 5 days. We went to Santa Cruz to the beach so that the kids could see the ocean. That was awesome. Nikki loved the waves and building sand castles and just playing. CJ on the other hand wanted nothing to do with the water. It was loud and cold. He just wanted to play in the sand.
After hanging out in San Jose for a few days Cindi and I and all 6 kids loaded in the van at 5am to miss California's AM rush hour. We headed to Nevada to our mom and dads. This was about a 9 hour drive. It went pretty well although I have to admit I forgot what it was like to drive through the mountains between California and Nevada.
Seeing my mom and dad was awesome. 5 years was just too long. James flew out and met us at mom and dads camp that Saturday and my sister Serena and her family came out also. We couldn't believe that our family had gone from 6 to 20. Well its getting late tonight and I have so much more to post so I will stop here for now and will post more later. I promise to post soon.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Getting There
I thought that I would be able to blog every day and keep CJ's food diary here but as it seems that was a harder idea than I thought. CJ is doing really great eating and is continuing to get stronger at eating also. He is getting his meals down in about 30-45 minutes now instead of an hour or two and is starting to eat more. He will usually eat now a pancake or frozen waffle with butter & syrup for breakfast (his fave) and will usually eat the whole thing. We did find though that he needs to be awake for awhile before he eats and he eats better. For lunch he will usually nibble on various things his favorite would be sauteed mushrooms or raw will be fine if we don't feel like cooking them, we are trying to get him used to eating bread which is also getting better. Then for dinner we are still working on meats but he loves corn on the cob and will usually eat 3-4 ears at one meal. Thank goodness I stocked up last year but I have to break out the big pot just to cook corn for the 4 of us. For some reason he doesn't care for canned corn so ears it is. We tried the carnation breakfast milk and he did not like it. (bummer) that would have been a great calorie intake for him. He does however like ice cream bars as long as they are not chocolate. He is just doing amazing. I am so proud of him. CJ had a doctors appointment today to just check up on how things are going and the doctor was very pleased with his progress and said we could continue with how we are doing things. I was so excited to hear that because I have been so worried about his weight loss. He has only lost 3 pounds though in a month so that's not so bad I guess. He just looks so skinny. I was used to him having a little round belly and now its gone. :(. But none the less I am very happy that he is starting to eat.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Day 8,9,10 & 11
I guess I didn't realize how long it's been since I posted. CJ's eating is still very up and down. Saturday and Sunday he didn't eat very much at all and wasn't interested in eating. I didn't write down what he did eat though so now I don't remember.(o well) I know he did drink real well and drank probably a cup of milk on both days. On Monday we started the day out about the same. I couldn't get him to eat any breakfast but for lunch he ate some pineapple and a couple baby carrots and then for dinner we had ham and corn on the cob and he ate a teaspoon of ham and 3 ears of corn. (AWESOME). I guess the best part was that he ate all of that so fast that he finished eating shortly after everyone else. Today (day 11) Grandma said that he ate well for her also. He ate 6 potato chips, 1 peanut butter cookie, 5 bites of pineapple and drank 3 juice bottles. He ate some other things also but James left the list at her house and he couldn't remember everything so I will edit more later. Now for dinner tonight he ate 4 mushrooms and 2 tablespoons of pork chops and 1 bite of broccoli. He is doing so awesome. I was able to talk with Heather a little about how her son started eating at the beginning and she said it was the same way so that made me feel better. I did get some carnation breakfast powder that we are going to try putting in his milk tomorrow so we will see how that goes I was going to start it today but the kids helped put groceries away and I couldn't find it. However James ended up finding it in the freezer tonight. (silly kids) Thanks Boeckman mommy for the tip. At this point I am willing to try anything. I love the suggestions because you just never know what might work.
Nikki is doing really great her last dance competition went really well and we will be going to nationals in a couple of weeks to that will be exciting. She had her first ponytail softball practice tonight and absolutely loved it. I was so glad. CJ start pre-tball next week so that ought to be fun. It looks like we will be spending Mon-Thurs at the ball fields though since Nikki and CJ's games are of course not on the same day. James just got back home on Sunday from a hog hunt down in Oklahoma and seemed to have a good time. The hog he shot with his bow and arrow was 246 pounds so he was happy. Me not so much since it is sitting in my foyer in a cooler because he hasn't had time to butcher it yet. (it will be tomorrow). We finally got the siding put on the house and they finished it up last week it looks amazing. James went up tonight and picked up the stone so they will be putting it up tomorrow. I can't wait to see what it looks like. All in all life is good.
Nikki is doing really great her last dance competition went really well and we will be going to nationals in a couple of weeks to that will be exciting. She had her first ponytail softball practice tonight and absolutely loved it. I was so glad. CJ start pre-tball next week so that ought to be fun. It looks like we will be spending Mon-Thurs at the ball fields though since Nikki and CJ's games are of course not on the same day. James just got back home on Sunday from a hog hunt down in Oklahoma and seemed to have a good time. The hog he shot with his bow and arrow was 246 pounds so he was happy. Me not so much since it is sitting in my foyer in a cooler because he hasn't had time to butcher it yet. (it will be tomorrow). We finally got the siding put on the house and they finished it up last week it looks amazing. James went up tonight and picked up the stone so they will be putting it up tomorrow. I can't wait to see what it looks like. All in all life is good.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Day 6 and 7
I feel like I'm on a roller coaster constantly going up and down. Yesterday CJ did not eat very well again, for breakfast he ate 1 1/2 powdered doughnuts and then for lunch he ate a little noodles. Then when we sat down for dinner I just wasn't expecting him to eat much at all. We had chicken, green beans and butter noodles. When I put his plate down in front of him I sighed real big and he looked up at me and said mom I'm not going to fight you about eating tonight. ( What a sweet heart) as you can imagine my heart melted and I almost felt like crying but instead I told him that I thought that would be a wonderful idea.He ended up eating an 1/8 of a cup of noodles. Not so great but better than nothing, he was true to his word though and did not fight me. Well since he didn't eat very well I decided to go ahead and hook him up to his pump with him awake instead of waiting until he fell asleep. Boy was he excited. Unfortunately for me he loves his pump and the comfort he feels when he is hooked up. I am worried about his weight loss. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry about it, but I just can't help it. I just love and worry about him so much.
Anyways that was day 6 then for day 7 it started out really rough. CJ had a bowel movement some time during the night and did not wake up. So needless to say when I woke up the whole upstairs smelled really bad. He has been having accidents like this every night since we stopped the tube feedings I'm not sure why. Well needless to say I had to peel his underwear off him and stick him in the shower all before 6am. I felt so sorry for him and just hated having to wake him up so early. I tried to get him to fall back asleep but he wasn't having any of that.
Well after a little TV time and my shower I asked him what he wanted for breakfast and he said doughnuts again so we went and got some but he wouldn't eat them. He was crying and I was begging what a sight that was.lol. I even threatened to throw away his pump (that didn't work) . He did finally eat 1 3/4 so I was pleased with that but didn't hold out much hope for the rest of the day since he didn't seem to be in a very good mood.
WOW! Was I wrong, he ate really awesome. When I picked them up from grandma's she handed me a whole list of what he had eaten. I thought I was going to breakdown this has been making me very emotional. So throughout the day he ate 5-6 good sized mushrooms, an orange cream Popsicle, 7 slices of cheese, 5 bites of ham, 2 cups of watermelon pieces and since he did such a great job eating grandma took the kids to DQ and he at 1/2 of a small ice cream cone not the kiddie cones since grandma didn't realize they had those but a small, now that's allot of ice cream. Now for dinner he just piddled but that's OK. I was just so proud of him for eating so much throughout the day.
I know that sometimes I feel like I just want to quit but at the same time I feel as though if I quit then I will be quiting on him. A friend of mine reminded me of the time when he was on ECMO. The docs didn't really want him on for as long as he was, they said that 14 days was the max because anything after that would not benefit him but make things worse. On day 14 they tried to wean him and he failed and could not come off. I remember feeling devastated when they told us that we should think about making funeral arrangements because he probably wasn't going to make it. After talking with the docs we or they decided to keep him on for another day and it worked. He was on ECMO for 15 days and because of that extra day he is here with us today. With that she reminded me that we didn't give up on him or loose hope then so we could do this now because it would be what is best for him even though its hard, its not as hard as what we have been through. If that makes any sense. Well that's all for now please continue to pray for our strength. I think I am going to call it a night.
Anyways that was day 6 then for day 7 it started out really rough. CJ had a bowel movement some time during the night and did not wake up. So needless to say when I woke up the whole upstairs smelled really bad. He has been having accidents like this every night since we stopped the tube feedings I'm not sure why. Well needless to say I had to peel his underwear off him and stick him in the shower all before 6am. I felt so sorry for him and just hated having to wake him up so early. I tried to get him to fall back asleep but he wasn't having any of that.
Well after a little TV time and my shower I asked him what he wanted for breakfast and he said doughnuts again so we went and got some but he wouldn't eat them. He was crying and I was begging what a sight that was.lol. I even threatened to throw away his pump (that didn't work) . He did finally eat 1 3/4 so I was pleased with that but didn't hold out much hope for the rest of the day since he didn't seem to be in a very good mood.
WOW! Was I wrong, he ate really awesome. When I picked them up from grandma's she handed me a whole list of what he had eaten. I thought I was going to breakdown this has been making me very emotional. So throughout the day he ate 5-6 good sized mushrooms, an orange cream Popsicle, 7 slices of cheese, 5 bites of ham, 2 cups of watermelon pieces and since he did such a great job eating grandma took the kids to DQ and he at 1/2 of a small ice cream cone not the kiddie cones since grandma didn't realize they had those but a small, now that's allot of ice cream. Now for dinner he just piddled but that's OK. I was just so proud of him for eating so much throughout the day.
I know that sometimes I feel like I just want to quit but at the same time I feel as though if I quit then I will be quiting on him. A friend of mine reminded me of the time when he was on ECMO. The docs didn't really want him on for as long as he was, they said that 14 days was the max because anything after that would not benefit him but make things worse. On day 14 they tried to wean him and he failed and could not come off. I remember feeling devastated when they told us that we should think about making funeral arrangements because he probably wasn't going to make it. After talking with the docs we or they decided to keep him on for another day and it worked. He was on ECMO for 15 days and because of that extra day he is here with us today. With that she reminded me that we didn't give up on him or loose hope then so we could do this now because it would be what is best for him even though its hard, its not as hard as what we have been through. If that makes any sense. Well that's all for now please continue to pray for our strength. I think I am going to call it a night.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Day 5
CJ is just a slow eater. We did not have a big day eating today. CJ did not once again eat very much. For breakfast he ate 1-1/2 powdered doughnuts, for lunch he ate an ear of corn, a Popsicle and about a 1/4 of a hot dog. Then for dinner he ate 1 bite of pizza and about 3 tsp of mac & cheese. I don't think he is eating very good but James just keeps reassuring me that it is fine and he will have days that he doesn't eat much. I weighed him today and he has lost about a pound which I guess isn't bad but we haven't finished out the week yet either. Hopefully we will start seeing an increase is his eating this next week.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Day 4
I was not around for any of CJ's meals today due to the fact that I had to work. It sounds like he had an OK day eating. He ate for breakfast 1/2 a waffle and a few bites of cereal then for a snack/lunch he had some animal crackers an egg white and about 4 ounces of strawberry milk. Then for dinner he ate about a tablespoon of cottage cheese and about 6-8 bites of turkey and then some more animal crackers. It sounds like he just kinda grazed through the day. I feel kinda guilty saying this but going to work was a nice break not having to stress about trying to get him to eat I think I needed the break. I don't know how long we are going to do this, there really isn't a time line. James wants to give him 2 weeks. I haven't weighed him yet to see if he has lost any weight yet I will do this tomorrow. He started at 40.5 pounds. The doctors said that we will see weight loss the first week but then should see him start gaining his weight back by the end of the second week.
On another note CJ had his karate graduation today and is now a green belt with a white stripe. I am so proud of him he is just growing so much and never ceases to amaze me every day.
On another note CJ had his karate graduation today and is now a green belt with a white stripe. I am so proud of him he is just growing so much and never ceases to amaze me every day.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Day 2 & 3
The last couple days have not been going so great. Although CJ is still eating a little he is not eating very much and has started fighting us about eating. I'm already tired, just mentally exhausted and feel like I just want to cry or scream or something, maybe I need to do both. Yesterday (day 2) he ate about 1 cup of cereal for breakfast which of course took all morning and we also bolused him some of his formula. Then he started getting cranky so we got him to lay down and take a nap about 11:30 am. With that being said he slept through lunch and woke up around 2:30 or 3 pm. and would not eat anything. Then for dinner he did finally eat a good amount of pork chops probably about 2 tablespoons which took almost 3 hrs for him to get eaten. Of course by then it was bedtime so he went to bed and when he fell asleep we tube fed him. We thought that if we waited until he was asleep before we hooked him up then he wouldn't know that he got tube fed at all.
Today on day #3 he ate his usual amount of cereal for breakfast and almost 1/2 of a long jon doughnut and then he went to school. He said he didn't eat anything at school so I'm not sure if this is true or not. For an after school snack I know he ate several Cheetos but then for dinner he ate 2 bites of fish and a tablespoon and a half of peanut butter. Other than that he just cried because he didn't want to eat or he wasn't hungry or he just cried and said that he couldn't do it. I know that to wean a child of anything it is hard but to wean a child of his tube feedings is about to bring me to a meltdown. James just keeps reminding me that it is going to take time and that he is not going to eat overnight and I guess that is what I want. I just want him to eat and be healthy and happy and I can't help but feel like he's not ready and maybe we should wait a little longer. I go back to work tomorrow so I am hoping that he will eat good (or maybe better) for his grandma. We will see I suppose, James is going out of town on Wednesday and won't be back until Sunday and I'm worried that I won't be able to do this on my own and that I will fail him in some way. Anyways I'm going to stop here because I'm getting myself upset again. I am trying to look at the positives that he is eating and drinking more than before and that God will guide us in the right direction. Please keep us in your prayers.
Today on day #3 he ate his usual amount of cereal for breakfast and almost 1/2 of a long jon doughnut and then he went to school. He said he didn't eat anything at school so I'm not sure if this is true or not. For an after school snack I know he ate several Cheetos but then for dinner he ate 2 bites of fish and a tablespoon and a half of peanut butter. Other than that he just cried because he didn't want to eat or he wasn't hungry or he just cried and said that he couldn't do it. I know that to wean a child of anything it is hard but to wean a child of his tube feedings is about to bring me to a meltdown. James just keeps reminding me that it is going to take time and that he is not going to eat overnight and I guess that is what I want. I just want him to eat and be healthy and happy and I can't help but feel like he's not ready and maybe we should wait a little longer. I go back to work tomorrow so I am hoping that he will eat good (or maybe better) for his grandma. We will see I suppose, James is going out of town on Wednesday and won't be back until Sunday and I'm worried that I won't be able to do this on my own and that I will fail him in some way. Anyways I'm going to stop here because I'm getting myself upset again. I am trying to look at the positives that he is eating and drinking more than before and that God will guide us in the right direction. Please keep us in your prayers.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Day 1
Today went so great! We woke up with a wonderful morning. Since we did not tube feed CJ this morning he woke up happy and was not retching at all, which is so out of the ordinary. I absolutely loved waking up to him laughing and being silly instead of retching and crabby. We gave him half of his morning feeding by bolus (no pump). He ate a cup of fruit loops for breakfast which took him almost all morning to eat so we never did a morning snack. For lunch he ate 2 bites of hamburger and 3 tsp. of mac and cheese, then for an afternoon snack he ate 2 slices of watermelon (his favorite). Then for dinner he ate 3/4 of a hot dog. I would say that for his first day he did so awesome. He also drank probably 4-6 oz of water throughout the day and I ended up giving him a 4 oz bolus of water around mid afternoon. I thought he did so great I know it is hard for him to swallow. He is still real hesitant when it comes to swallowing so meals take at least an hour so this is something we will need to work on. Tonight at dinner we had all finished our meals and were waiting on CJ to finish his, well it takes him forever to finally swallow his bites which I figure is just inexperience so I went and got a hot dog and started racing him to see who could swallow their bite first which did speed things up a little although I now feel like I could explode, maybe I better think of these things before I'm done eating. lol :) Any ways he seemed very content and happy today never complaining of being hungry but we did still have to rock a little. Right now he is in bed sleeping peacefully and is yes hooked up to his pump we decided to tube feed him at night to increase his calories so we will see how this works. Please continue praying for his strength.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Big Day
Wow!! Its hard to believe that tomorrow is already here. We are going to stop CJ's tube feedings to see what happens. We had an appointment last Monday with OT and they suggested only stopping one tube feeding at a time. This I think was a good idea but only in some ways. Yes he would probably only be hungry a little and would not be short that many calories but, the problem I see with that idea is that he is still getting tube feedings so therefore I think if he feels hungry he will just wait for the tube feeding instead of eating real food. So just to humor them we did try that last week by stopping his 6pm feeding so that he would eat dinner. Although he did eat a little more he got bored and wanted to still be hooked up after just as we thought. So now we are going to test our theory and stop the pump altogether. We are going to bolus feed him in the morning and at bed time but we will not use the pump at all. I talked with CJ about this a little but I don't think he understands what I am trying to say because he's just worried about having to take out the button and whether or not it will hurt when it does come out. I tried to explain to him that we were not taking the button out, that we are just not going to hook him up to his pump but I'm not sure he was getting it. He did say OK that he would eat real food though so I am praying really hard that God gives him the strength he needs to get through this hurdle in his life. I am going to try to keep my blog as my daily journal also of his progress. I am really excited and also very nervous at the same time, please pray that all goes well for CJ.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Doctors Appointment
Good News. We went to see the CJ's doc on Monday the 20Th to see about stopping his tube feedings to see if it would encourage his eating, and he said that he thought that it was a great idea. We went over what he is now eating per g-tube and I told him that we planned on feeding him in the morning and at bedtime with nothing in between except a bolus of water periodically. He said it sounded as though we had a well thought out plan and that he probably won't need the water bolus on account that he will probably start also drinking more fluids so we won't have to worry about him dehydrating, he also reminded us how a normal 4 year old eats and to remember it is a weekly total of intake not a daily total.
I want to make sure that we can commit to CJ when we do this so we will not start until the first Saturday in May. That will give me 3 days to get started before I have to go back to work. We were also planning on offering CJ food all day whenever he would eat but the doc said that we would be better off keeping him on a regular normal kid schedule with 2 snacks in between meals and to also keep a food diary.
I am both excited and nervous at the same time. We will also be working with OT at Mercy and we have an appointment with them on Monday to also go over everything. The thought of him not gagging and retching anymore with his meals is so exciting. On mornings that we feed him late there is no retching when he wakes up, but when we feed him on his morning schedule he wakes up retching and will do this for about 45 min. it's horrible and it makes him feel horrible. Please keep CJ in your prayers that he has the strength to overcome the battle that is to come and that he will succeed with leaps and bounds.
I want to make sure that we can commit to CJ when we do this so we will not start until the first Saturday in May. That will give me 3 days to get started before I have to go back to work. We were also planning on offering CJ food all day whenever he would eat but the doc said that we would be better off keeping him on a regular normal kid schedule with 2 snacks in between meals and to also keep a food diary.
I am both excited and nervous at the same time. We will also be working with OT at Mercy and we have an appointment with them on Monday to also go over everything. The thought of him not gagging and retching anymore with his meals is so exciting. On mornings that we feed him late there is no retching when he wakes up, but when we feed him on his morning schedule he wakes up retching and will do this for about 45 min. it's horrible and it makes him feel horrible. Please keep CJ in your prayers that he has the strength to overcome the battle that is to come and that he will succeed with leaps and bounds.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Getting Creative
Happy Late Easter!! Our Easter was fun. I missed out on the Easter egg coloring this year due to the fact that I had to work (bummer). So needless to say James was very excited to be on dad duty that day. :) I love him so much he is such a great dad. I know he really wanted to be out fishing but he colored eggs instead and did a wonderful job. He was very creative with the eggs and even took pictures and sent them to me via phone so that I would not completely miss it. Well Tax Season is officially over so I am back to my regular schedule and it feels great to know that I won't be working so may hours. With that being said!!!! I have some exciting or what I hope will become exciting news. We have a client that comes into our office and her son was also tube fed like CJ. I always enjoy when she comes in to have her taxes done because it's nice to be able to talk to someone that can relate to your situation and knows what your going through. Well last year her son started eating by mouth (how exciting) but we never really got to talk about how this miracle happened. This year I was determined to find out what she did.
I already knew that we saw the same OT at Mercy since we had ran into each other at previous appointments, but since we were having tests done we had stopped OT until the tests were complete. Naturally after the tests were completed I was exhausted and I guess just accepted that this was how it was going to be and quit going to Mercy for OT. Until I talked with Heather. Now I am excited again and ready to start helping CJ again with his eating. When Heather came in we naturally started talking about our boys and she asked me if I had gotten extreme with his eating?
I was a little surprised with this and just said well we offer him food all the time and have him sit at the table with us whether he eats or not but I don't know if that's extreme or not. She proceeded to tell me that what she meant by that, was to stop tube feeding him. I was shocked to hear her say this because our friends Nate and Amy kinda did this with Kaden when they fed him at night and not during the day he was eating more, so needless to say this got my attention. We had thought about it before but I was afraid to try.
What she did was tube feed him once in the morning and at bedtime then during the day she would bolus him one to two ounces of water every couple of hours to keep him hydrated. She said that within two weeks her son went from not swallowing anything to no more tube feedings at all. And within 3 months he was able to have his mickey removed. I got on the phone immediately and started lining out doctor and OT appointments. Our first appointment is Monday with his regular doc. I want to make sure he is monitored during this so that he doesn't get sick or dehydrated. I am not going to ask the doctors anymore if this will be OK to do, I am going to tell them this is what we are going to do like it or not. I have tried doing it there way and although we have made some progress I believe with all my heart and soul that he wants to eat. I think he is starting to get lazy about eating because he knows that he will just be hooked up and he will have a full belly so why eat real food.
CJ here lately has started eating more. He loves cheese and mushrooms of all foods. He is now chewing and swallowing food quite often and will sometimes eat as many as 6 bites a meal. I think that if he gets hungry he will eat a whole meal. I am really excited and at the same time torn apart about doing this. I made sure I got Heather's phone number this time and I asked her if she would be my support since I guess in a way I will be making my son very hungry. I can already hear him crying and saying he's hungry I know he will have all the food in the world being offered to him but the thought is still horrible. I guess this is what you might call tough love. I am not sure when we will start this, I will let you know what happens on Monday. Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers.
I already knew that we saw the same OT at Mercy since we had ran into each other at previous appointments, but since we were having tests done we had stopped OT until the tests were complete. Naturally after the tests were completed I was exhausted and I guess just accepted that this was how it was going to be and quit going to Mercy for OT. Until I talked with Heather. Now I am excited again and ready to start helping CJ again with his eating. When Heather came in we naturally started talking about our boys and she asked me if I had gotten extreme with his eating?
I was a little surprised with this and just said well we offer him food all the time and have him sit at the table with us whether he eats or not but I don't know if that's extreme or not. She proceeded to tell me that what she meant by that, was to stop tube feeding him. I was shocked to hear her say this because our friends Nate and Amy kinda did this with Kaden when they fed him at night and not during the day he was eating more, so needless to say this got my attention. We had thought about it before but I was afraid to try.
What she did was tube feed him once in the morning and at bedtime then during the day she would bolus him one to two ounces of water every couple of hours to keep him hydrated. She said that within two weeks her son went from not swallowing anything to no more tube feedings at all. And within 3 months he was able to have his mickey removed. I got on the phone immediately and started lining out doctor and OT appointments. Our first appointment is Monday with his regular doc. I want to make sure he is monitored during this so that he doesn't get sick or dehydrated. I am not going to ask the doctors anymore if this will be OK to do, I am going to tell them this is what we are going to do like it or not. I have tried doing it there way and although we have made some progress I believe with all my heart and soul that he wants to eat. I think he is starting to get lazy about eating because he knows that he will just be hooked up and he will have a full belly so why eat real food.
CJ here lately has started eating more. He loves cheese and mushrooms of all foods. He is now chewing and swallowing food quite often and will sometimes eat as many as 6 bites a meal. I think that if he gets hungry he will eat a whole meal. I am really excited and at the same time torn apart about doing this. I made sure I got Heather's phone number this time and I asked her if she would be my support since I guess in a way I will be making my son very hungry. I can already hear him crying and saying he's hungry I know he will have all the food in the world being offered to him but the thought is still horrible. I guess this is what you might call tough love. I am not sure when we will start this, I will let you know what happens on Monday. Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Karate Tournament
I know this is way overdue. The Karate tournament was so much fun. CJ went into this of course not sure of exactly what to expect. It was so cute. As soon as they started explaining how things work and showing everyone all the trophy's he was so excited. He said he was going to get himself one of those trophy's. I was so very proud of him, his first medal was a gold medal and he was so excited it almost made me cry. He came running to me screaming look what I got mom, look what I got take a picture of me. The picture I posted of him holding the medal was his very first medal ever. The gold medal! Just looking at those pictures I can still see the pride of accomplishment in his face. It was so cool to see him get so excited that finally he was winning medals not just his sister. CJ was in 5 events that day and won 3 golds and 2 silver medals. We were so very proud of him. Now the great thing with karate tournaments is that everyone always wins. And with that being said you can take the medals you win and trade up for a trophy or trade your small trophy's for larger trophy's. So needless to say when we asked CJ if he would like to trade his medals in for a trophy he was all for that. So we came home with one gold medal and a 3rd place trophy. It was so cute, when we got home of course we had to clean off a shelf for his trophy's (they also got a small participation trophy). As we were cleaning off the shelf he just kept chatting about how we were going to have to get more shelves because he was planning on winning allot more trophy's. I had to kinda chuckle to myself when he was chatting away. To think that almost 5 years ago the doctors were telling us that they didn't know if he would survive or not, to today, he is running around winning trophy's and medals. He definitely is nothing short of a miracle. I am truly blessed. I am so very proud of you CJ and we will put up as many shelves as you need.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Dance Competion # 2
I have been meaning to get this posted all week and just did not make it. Nikki had her 2nd dance competition last weekend and again they all did so awesome. She danced in her small group to the song Cooties (in the blue outfit) and in the large group production the danced to Ease on down the road, in this dance they are dressed as the Wizard of Oz and of course Nikki is a munchkin. The dance is really neat. The little girls won silver for Cooties and for the production they won PLATINUM!!!! You go girls. I was so proud of my little munchkin. The pictures aren't real great I forgot my camera so all I had was my camera phone. We won't have any dance this weekend though. This weekend is dedicated to CJ as he has his first karate tournament. The kids are just growing up so fast. I will post pictures of CJ's tournament hopefully next week. Spring break has been a relief for the kids I think they really needed the break. We even let Nikki sluff on her homework so we will have to get with it this weekend. As for now she is having her best friend sleepover and we are currently in popcorn mode watching Nancy Drew one of her fave movies. It will be interesting to see who makes it to the end of the movie. The girls or me. :)
It will probably be the girls. lol. tata for now.
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